My Best Friend

I have always know that she has an eating disorder, I could tell from her characteristics and behaviour. She reminded me of myself.

Ever since I’ve had treatment for my ED, she is more open about hers. In a bad way.

She tells me of her diets, her weight and asks what I’m doing. It would be so easy to just give in and diet together. Share tips and trick !!! share our progress with each other.

My doctor tells me I need to surround myself with positive, happy, healthy people. So I shouldn’t really be speaking to my best friend…..which sucks.

I was heart broken when she text me saying she’d ‘quite eating’….. in her state of mind I can’t tell her she needs help, she is too ill. It kilsl me to think about it.

ED has had control and wrecked my past, I hate that there is a possibility she could become very ill, hospitalised and yea, not be here any more.. because of a firkin eating disorder.

I hate it anyway, thanks for reading any advice would be nice

Crystal xxx

Stress…..

Stress, I hate it

When I have it I can’t let it go, its like a thing in my head that holds on to my brain. Even when what I’m stressed about is over it’s still there !!!!!!!!! Eating at me !!!

I hate the feeling stress. To me if feels of anxious, worry and a bit of guilt mixed all together along with a sore head, little sleep and no appetite.

I always get so caught up in what I am doing until all I’m thinking about is that, turning what ever that is to something unpleasant because of stress ……. I’m not a negative person by any means but I just can’t handle stress.

How do you relax and de-stress ??? pplleeaase share you tips and tricks

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Long time no see !!!

Hi guys !!!,

Super sorry I’ve not been on here, been sooo busy with college and work. Handed in my 1st assignment yesterday.. got 2 weeks till the next one !!! yaay -__-.

I promise to try and get on here more, give you a little update : )

speak ssooonnn

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What Is Healthy Eating ?

When I say ‘healthy Eating’ I’m not talking about kale smoothies, carb free and diet foods. Healthy eating is a balanced varied diet.

I always get quite annoyed when people say ‘I’m going on a diet’, no one ‘needs to diet’, you just change your lifestyle.

THE EAT WELL PLATE………………………………………… 

Fruit&Veg 33%..Bread&Rice 33%..Milk&Dairy 15%…

sources of protein 12 %.. Food & Drink high in fat  8%…. 

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Above, is a picture showing you the different food groups and what’s considered a healthy balanced diet. I was surprised to learn that we need to have more carbs (potatoes etc) than protein!!!!

It does look a lot but when you split it throughout your day, its not.

Recommended daily portion Guide………………………………………….

Fruit & Vegetables, 7 or more portions a day (80g is a portion ), one dessert bowl of salad    

Starchy food, 7 to 8 portions, one thick slice of bread or toast                                                    

milk and dairy foods, 2 portions, 1 pot of yoghurt                                                                          

sources of protein, 2 to 3 portions, 2 eggs                                                                                      

fats and oils, 3 portions a day, one teaspoon of butter                                                                

high fat and high sugar, 1 portion a day, 2 plain biscuits          

All your portions can be used through out the day, remember its a GUIDE. You don’t have to stick to it religiously !!!!! Its just to help you have a balanced diet.

An example of using this guide…………………………………………..

Breakfast                                              

• Bran-flakes
• semi skimmed milk
• small fruit juice 
• cup of tea, no milk          

  Mid morning 

• Coffee, milk, no sugar
• Apple

Lunch

• Tuna salad sandwich -2 slices of bread, low fat spread, tinned tuna & mixed salad
• glass of water
• malt loaf

mid afternoon 

• pot of tea,no sugar 

Dinner

• 4 large tablespoons of boiled rice
• small chicken breast
• sauce
• carrot
• broccoli
• peaches & double cream 
• glass of wine 

This example has all the recommended amount of each food groups. This is JUST an example, you can work out your own using the guide.  As I said, you don’t have to follow it religiously!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks for reading and follwing mmee !!!!!!

xclouisex

                                         

R.E.C.O.V.E.R.Y.

               Recovery By Definition

healthy eating exercise freak or eating disorder ? Opinions wanted !!!

My Mother tells me ‘Don’t concentrate on what other people are eating just concentrate on you !!’

Some days that’s impossible ……

I have great difficulty distinguishing the difference between a ‘Healthy, active’ life style & an ‘Eating       disorder’. How do you know which is what???.

Are they JUST healthy eating exercise freaks or do they have a problem ??                                   When I say ‘healthy eating, exercise freaks’ I’m referring to people I know. Two girls specificity.

One exercises everyday for 1.5 hours, ALWAYS eats healthy. Obsesses over talking about food, exercise and weight loss and recently became vegetarian … that SCREAM eating disorder to me !!!!.

I can’t understand how someone could be happy living like that everyday ?? it’s the same thinking as someone with an eating disorder ??? yet THEY are normal and THEY don’t have a problem????.

Or is it just me ???

Can someone actually be happy with these behaviours?

I really want some opinions on this, I’d like to see what other people think ??

Thanks for reading !!!

xclouisex

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$10,000 saved by your 30TH Birthday !!!

Amazing right!!!!, sounds pretty hard to do…but it’s not !!!!

What you will need to do –

1. 30- your current age =

2. Answer to question 1 (above) x 365 ( days in a year) =

3. $10,000 / (divided) by answer to question 2 =

The answer you have is the amount you would need to put aside every day !!!, depending how old you are, it can work out to be next to nothing !!. You can change the age (30) say if you wanted to do something for your 21st…. just replace 30 with 21 !!!

Just think, if you didn’t buy that coffee at college or on the way to work, gave up smoking or had 1 less chocolate bar a week. You would be surprised at what you could actually save !!! Work it it and see.

xclouisex

Songs with meaning !!!

I LOVE MUSIC…..

I listen to it everyday, no matter what mood I’m in. My mood decides what kinda of music I want to listen to…whether its up-lifting, angry or sad. I though I’d share some of my favourite songs with you…….

 Johnny Cash- Hurt

 http://youtu.be/3aF9AJm0RFc

Certain songs have meaning to you at one point in your life. For me, this is one of those songs.       The first time I heard it I could really relate to the lyrics. I still love the song but I don’t have that same connection any more. To me that means I’ve emotional grown. I think that’s the best thing about music, it helps you recognise your progression as a person.

‘Hurt was first realised By ‘Nine inch Nails’ in 1994, Johnny Cash re-released it in 2002. I personally prefer Johnny’s version. If you haven’t heard it, check it out !! See which one you prefer and let me know !!

Maniac – Kid Cudi & Cage

http://youtu.be/ZT4hcbSNq6U

This song I love, not everyone’s cup of tea (taste) but I think the lyrics are amazing. Its basically about depression and what it does to you, what YOU want to do with it. They make “Depression” sound like an actual object/person. Sometimes when you are depressed you would rather shut your self in a room with it rather than fight it…to me this song is about that. NOT HEARD IT, GIVE IT A LISTEN.

Also go check out Kid Cudi & Cage’s albums. The are both quite interesting people, they are very open about mental health experiencing it themselves.

Kelis – caught out there 

http://youtu.be/N3JFwd1bk4Q

This song is definitely my anger song …. I love how crazy it gets. It is about cheating men but I haven’t been cheated on. … I relate it to other people (not in my life anm)

Doris Day- Que Sera Sera 

http://youtu.be/xZbKHDPPrrc

Oldie here !!!!! I love it though, it makes me super happy !!. It’s so catchy and I think its quite sweet. It was released in 1956 form ‘The Doris Day show’

ColdPlay- Fix you

This came out in 2005, I think is a great song. I’m sure you all would have heard it b4…..

There is probably over 100 songs I could tell you about but I don’t have time lol, hope you take a listen to some of the songs if you haven’t heard them before and let me know what your fav songs are !!!

Thanks for reading

xclouisex

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Just A Thank you !!!

I just want to thank everyone who follows me !!! really appreciate you reading my posts : ). If anyone has any requests on topics, I’ll gladly take them : ).

Thanks Guys !!!

xclouisex

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